December 2011
1 post
Merry merry.
Hope y’all are having a great Christmas!
March 2010
3 posts
damn I haven't lost followers over this shit....
……. yet.
we fight about his girlfriend.
part of it is because I wish I could be with him,
and the other part is because she’s not good enough for him.
AT. FUCKING. ALL.
AT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
omg.
I WISH I could bump into her one day.
I’d slap the dog shit out of her.
Like how DARE you treat this man the way you do, you ungrateful, self centered, irresponsible -UUGGHHH.
not in the mood.
tonight’s just been a bad night.
ugh.
February 2010
2 posts
bakery. [the art of flirting.]
I am insatiable.
but it comes as naturally as song.
pleasantly perfected to preform precise plays meant to perplex the person on the other end of the phone.
mamas say that when her fists rap into chests it’s just a love tap.
“baby she likes you”
& maybe i’d like you
if i didnt love him.
see you’re not him & my mind body and soul know it
never wanting...
I havent posted on here in a while.
simply because i’m trying to be more real on my main blog.
but sometimes it’s nice to say something without it being reblogged a million times.
December 2009
43 posts
I just cried so much that my soul is drained.
I just stood in the shower & cried.
I tried to let it all go.
Let her go.
Let it go.
Let him go.
You never notice how hard it is.
I got to the point where I couldnt stand anymore.
I just sat there, crying.
& not all of this is about him.
hell most of it isnt about him.
It’s the constant refreshing of her pain in new forms.
Tumblrcrush has moved up in the world.
Hi Boyfriend!
^_^
Tumblrcrush.
:D
^_^
Hi baby!
I miss you already.
:(
HURRY!
There is definitely a new guy on the scene.
& he is ALREADY proving to be wayyyy better than you.
I hate trying to be strong.
DAMNIT.
Back in this rut.
I cant take this second best shit anymore.
No sir.
Just can’t do it.
I opened up to him a little today though.
Told him I was insecure.
I dont know if it made any difference…
He still left.
Ugh.
"He'll Get Over It."
It felt GREAT to be center of someone’s attention.
Not some sideline or backseat chick.
You should try it sometime.
Let me tell you a story.
Once upon a time an old lady named Naomi had three sons with her husband Elimelich.
There was a famine in her land so they moved to Moab.
Moab was a bad bad place to raise a family but Elimelich led them there anyway.
Their sons married three Moab women but had no children.
Soon after Elimelich and his sons died.
Naomi decided to move back to her town.
Her daughter-in-law Ruth went with her....
I just came to the realization.
That the guy I want in embodied in the three guys I like.
Guy one: Sexy freaking face & body. Tall, love music. Authoritative. NOM!
Guy two: Silly, fun, loves to create things.
Guy three: Independent, Caring, Good head on his shoulders, Ambitious.
Okay now where can I find a guy with all this?
I didnt stay up for him tonight!
I stayed up out of sheer madness!
It’s still fun.
Granted neither of the people I wanted to talk to tonight
messaged me back.
:|
but that’s a WHOLE NOTHER post.
Welcome!
Riah,
Randomcrap,
& Autumn.
Hope you enjoy the serious side of P.Lo.
Random:
I’m really glad I’ve never had a pregnancy scare/been preggo.
I could never abort a child.
Night Terror.
I just had one.
My friend and I were trapped in a corner outside of my school.
4 guys were closing in on us.
The one that was closest to me had a hammer, & every time I moved
the hammer moved.
I was too weak to fight them.
But my friend wasnt.
She grabbed a bat and swung.
I thought I was free, but hammer boy grabbed my leg.
I hit my head.
I woke up screaming and sweating.
I hate...
Hey YOU.
I hate when you hang up & dont call back.
Last Night I Cried Myself to Sleep.
Because yet ANOTHER guy that I like has a fucking girlfriend.
Like why do you wait until I’m falling for you to hit me with that?
I swear I felt like I was drowning last night.
I couldn’t breathe.
He asked me if I wanted him to stay on the phone.
I said yes.
That was so fucking stupid.
I should have said no.
I should’ve hung up once you said
“She’s my...
I only reposted it so he'd say something.
&& it worked.
=]
NO IT'S NOT FUCKING FINE!
Can you not read?
I. LIKE. YOU.
point blank period. [/vixen]
FUCK.
But I’ll continue to lie & see how long
I can withstand this misogynistic “relationship”.
Journal Entry for Today.
imjustanoreo:
December 3rd, 2009
Had lunch with the bestfriend/exlover. Awkward. Today for the first time i felt no sexual chemistry. No flirting. No romance. It was serene almost. I was talking to her but I remember none of the convo. It was almost like an out of body experience. Her hold on me seems to fading. She was just another woman. She twidled with my fingers and I felt nothing. She...
Hey followers.
If you want to ask me anything specific, go ahead.
I’m pretty bored and I’m interesting in what you guys have to say/ask.
I hate waking up.
It diffuses every dream & every fantasy.
It’s a slap in the face.
Like reality says “bitch that shit isn’t real. Get over it.”
Well fuck you reality.
I want to go back to sleep.
Too bad I HAVE to go to class today.
Oh God...He called.
Goodnight.
My Y! lit up & so did my heart.
Then I realized it wasn’t from you
and suddenly things were dim again.
My heart heeds not to my minds warnings.
“I just want fun”.
I re-read pass messages and my heart falls deeper into this despair.
Don’t worry you didn’t know, it’s not you it’s me I swear.
I’ll blame it all on my period later.
The excess estrogen makes me vomit truth....
Something tells me.
that he’s fallen asleep.
But I don’t trust that something.
So I’ll wait.
I’ll end up waiting until I cant keep my eyes open any longer.
Stupid heart.
Why do you do this?
ughxfshncrisisx:
thelowendtheory:
if i had the chance, i’d treat him like a king. Just like i do in all my dreams.
fact:
I named my new formspring.me bunnylo
in hopes that he would ask me a question.
[sigh.]
fucking pathetic.
Hello Girls!
Joolz
&
Crisis.
enjoy the seriousness.
He's about to call me.
& we’ll fall asleep on the phone once again.
I’ll act like this doesn’t make me want him more.
Like I’m okay with our current state.
But it’s illogical of me to want more.
He’s in Illinois.
I’m in California.
[shrugs].
That’s the way my life goes.
& I’ll keep on pretending.
Welcome.
Mochafrap.
ViaSanDiego.
NavyTete.
=]
pineapplelo started following you
I’m following myself.
lol!
Quick FYI.
ashleyingenious:
daughterofapastor:
Nothing is safe from discussion on the serious blog. Pineapplelo may hide that shit… but I wont.
You’re brave for this, and I admire you. FYI
=] aww thanks hun.
I hate new music.
I hate how it seems to ooze disrespect.
“Rappers” & other Top 40 “artists” don’t respect
the craft.
It’s all about making money.
That’s why I’ve refused record deals.
[crazy right?]
I don’t care.
Everyone has tried to change my image.
Nah I’m good.
Unless I can find a label that wants me soulful & jazzy like I am,...
Quick FYI.
Nothing is safe from discussion on the serious blog.
Pineapplelo may hide that shit… but I wont.
Learned Behaviour.
Him: I'm sorry I fucked up your mood.
Me: It's okay. I've learned to expect it.
HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE?!
I have a freaking crush on you.
& I shouldn’t.
I always do this.
[sigh.]
It’s not your fault.
You didn’t know I was like this.
Lets get serious.
I’ve never fallen in love 100%.
I’ve never had a boyfriend on Valentine’s or my birthday.
I’ve never had a boyfriend for longer than 4 months.
I cheat in long distance “relationships”.
I don’t trust anything boys/men say.
I’m used to being used.
If something is going well, I sabotage it.
I hate when people pity me.
I like guys on the internet...
Hey yall!
Ben
D’Angelo
Dabears!
W-E-B
Solar
h3ggs
I'm addicted to love/sex/pain.
I’ll do anything for those three things.
I never expect to have one without the other.
I dont like smoking.
I could never do hard drugs.
I dont even drink that heavy.
But there was a point where I used to have sex just to fill the huge void in my life.
It was like a constant thing.
I literally couldn’t go a day without sex of some sort.
It got to the point where I started...
Hey guys!
Darius
Agape
&
Arie!
So Basically....
I just needed a new start.
A chance to say everything I havent/didnt say as “pineapplelo”.
more disclaimers to come.
Well Hello.
I’m Loris.
AKA pineapplelo.
I’m 20.
I go to school in Oakland, California.
I live in Los Angeles.
My father is a pastor & bipolar.
My mother is a recovering addict.
=.
I’ve had a crazy crazy life.
This new blog is just for venting purposes.
Hope you enjoy/learn something/relate.